Hi Ya Lucie!
Tiz been a while crocodile!!
I’ve been noticing but letting it be ok. This morning I woke up writing you an email in my head so I knew it was time to sit down and blab again. Yea team!!
Saturday morning I was up and out before dawn cracked for my Convention meeting up in Ft Myers. We had an excellent Executive Meeting before the regular meeting, and both went really really well. Yea team!! I’m getting bolder; I feel me stepping out thru my fear or hesitation, and I’m liking it.
My Sponsee and I ‘caught God playing’ last week. The week before, my Sponssee was appalled because she’d missed an entire page of questions and had gone on to the next chapter. In the grande scheme of things, twuz no biggie but I know how she must have felt. We simply went on to the next chapter and planned to go back and cover the ones she’d missed the following week.
Well we both had situations come up during that next week that really brought those ‘missed questions’ more into focus for both of us. Like we had to live that week in between in order to bring them to life for us. It was delightful. She messed up with some minutes and had barked at the whole room. And I’d crawled into a ball when my nemesis and her pal showed up with their smarmie ways and I’d let them undermine my self-confidence and newfound boldness of nature. whoo whoo! and a fun time was had by all :o)
I heard a good one: “Our self talk is a gauge of our recovery.” And I was able to notice my not so kind self talk on Sunday when I was working in the yard. Jesus Lisa, you only worked an hour in that section! For God’s sake! That’s the third time you’ve taken a break and you still haven’t gotten that section done! I headed out into the garden to get a couple of have to’s done – I was tired of looking at the section of garden right in front of me every morning that was full of weeds so I tackled that part first. And like I said, I could only do about an hour and then I’d have to call it quits and go sit down inside for a while. I would sit, tired, feeling really bad because I was tired. Well, after a short while I was ready to go again so I’d head out and do another bit. But then I’d get tired and have to come in and rest. And, actually, spend a few minutes visiting with Lee which was kinda lovely looking back but of course I missed it while I was so busy yelling at me cuz I used to go two forty, get everything done in one day, and go on to tell the tale…
Anywho, at the end of the day, and I spent most of the morning and almost til 3:00 before I called it quits for the day, I was sitting visiting with my hubbie and he quietly said, ‘the garden looks lovely where you were working.’ What? Really? ‘Yea hon, it looks lovely.’ Geeze. So later on I went and looked and he was right, somewhere in there with all that hollering, I realized that that section that was bothering me so actually did look lovely. And I hadn’t even noticed. I was too busy looking at everything else that didn’t get done and that needed to get done and I was too damm tired to tackle it today if ever at all. Sigh. Wow. And so, in my pondering, I’ve realized that that’s how I roll now. I do a bit. I rest. I do a bit more. I rest. Kinda lovely. And now that I don’t have to yell at me during my breaks, well I’m thinkin that things will be a wee bit more lovely in my life :o) yee haw and yea team!!
Holy cow I put in a full day at the office yesterday. I wasn’t even expecting the meters back as yet because they’d gone out 5 days earlier than usual to take into account the training to be done, etc. Well, they were done yesterday and the new guy, came in first thing in the morning with the meter. Yikes! I didn’t even have their checks back from the accountant!! Anywho, among other things, I noticed how I did the tasks differently yesterday. I did this one til it was done but I did other things that came up as they came up as well. Like I didn’t let the other tasks get labeled INTERRUPTIONS and just handled them one at a time. A phone call with an updated address, a fax, another fax, another phone call with an updated address. Sigh. It’s like I had a ton of time so I didn’t have to rush at all and I didn’t need to get aggravated or upset or angry. Huh, who would thunk!
My son sent me an iPhone. Geeze. And I’ve been circling it for a few days now. I know what it looks like to ‘upgrade’ to something new and better and different. You spend a lot of time yelling at you cuz you can’t figure the damm thing out. And I guess I just didn’t want to tackle that task right about now, or maybe I just didn’t want to hear all the yelling… either way, I noticed I was putting off switching from my old ‘old fashioned’ phone in favor of the new fancie smanchie one. Well, don’t ya know that one of the phone calls yesterday was Verizon telling me that they’d lowered their rates [again] and the lady had wanted to review my plan to be sure it was the cheapest for me based on my current usage. Well it just so happens Miss Verizon Lady that I was going to call you because I now have a new iPhone and she finished the sentence for me, and you now you’ll need data. And I said, yes indeed I would. See, I can talk bold every now and again for no reason at all :o) Anywho, she helped me get it all sorted, it doesn’t cost an arm and a leg, and she even switched me from the old phone to the new one right then and there. Eek. Course I couldn’t’ get the wifi at the office to work for love nor money and decided – without yelling at me!! – that we’d do it from home cuz I know what the heck the user and password is there. And holy moly I am one impressed dude. Once I got it connected, it really did pick up all my contacts, etc, from my ipad. Wowwie doodle!! I still have to get a case for it, so I’m treating it Very Gingerly, but away we go!!
Ok Ezmirelda, I’m gunna close for now. Hey! Know I love you dearly!! And I totally loved the pictures of you and your gang on Facebook yesterday!! You looked so happy and so healthy!! Totally totally yea team on that one!! whoo whoo!! And yes, I did view said photos from my new iPhone. Well howdie doodle all over the place on that one too :o)
All my love!!