My boss was out and it’s amazing, she’s out and the phone barely rings. Yea team! I was able to get all of my Convention stuff sifted and sorted and posted from the weekend meeting and that always makes me feel settled and like I done good.
I’ve put in a call to my Sponsor to talk out my feelings over a member doing what I see as my job… ugh. Can’t seem to shake it and I notice that when I got an email from that member, I was immediately agitated and thought f. u. and deleted it. Eek. And I needed the stuff that was included. Do ya think that I might be nursing a wee bit of a resentment??? And so, we shall see harry…
All in all, I’m happy inside and I’m liking it. Course, my hubbie hasn’t been off the wall lately either, so I’m not so certain that I’m on solid ground; or, is it just that the fan hasn’t been slinging you know what at me for now… maybe it’s all the same thing and happy is just another crayon in the box? Worth a gander I suppose cuz I do judge ‘negative’ emotions as beneath me, a sign that I’m Not Getting It Right…
I had a gal on one of my webinar shows mention that all emotions are valid and it’s total bs when we get wrapped round the axle [my words] when we feel anger or annoyance. We’re not less spiritual, we’re more human. Huh. My words again but I’m likin that one :o) Like she pointed out, Jesus got angry and cleared the halls, so why would I get angry that I get angry?? Anywho, and the band played on.
Hey. I found another one of those sneakie ones this morning. Late last night I’d decided that I really did want that Holosync program; I’d gotten an ad on it at least a week ago and had gone online to check it out. The buy it page sat open on my computer ever since. Did I want it? Did I need it? What about all the stuff you’ve ordered and haven’t done??? Anywho, late last night I was like, chuckit, I want it. Period. So I ordered it. And, because I ordered the CD’s and the downloads, Because I Wanted It!, I was able to listen to the intro last night and do the first session this morning. Ok fine. What I got as I made a b-line to the bathroom, in the freezing cold, so I could get the first session in before I had to get up and get moving was, Tell me why you want to listen to this series. Just a quiet question. No judgment, nothing like that. Just a question for me to ponder. And I kinda laughed to myself and thought, Well, ya can always do more… And that’s when I got it: that old “Good enough is Never good enough” was playing out in yet another oh so subtle flavor. How about that! So, now I can check out the program and actually send it back if it’s not for me – instead of punishing me and yelling at me for having it undone on the shelf forever and ever amen :o) Yea team!!
Ain’t it amazin :o) And I do like amazin even if I do say so myself.
Okie dokie pokie, one of us has to get the lead out and get movin marvin, so I’ll close for now.
Know that you are dearly love precious friend!! All my love, Lis