Geeze, the time change got me this am! When I turned on my light, it was five minutes to seven!! Whaat? Welp, so much for listening to a tape for an hour…
I just got an ad for a library of holosync CDs. It’s a sound technology that actually rewires your brain. I love them. But. I’m looking around at the gazillion tape sets I’ve bought. The tape sets I’ve bought but not listened to. I remember my questioning of my mom, after she passed, she’d bought so many lovely lovely tape programs and to my knowledge never finished a one. Deep sigh. I have that lovely library of Paul Sheele tapes. I’d wanted to listen to each one, well, except maybe the quit smoking one… And I haven’t. And of course there are the piles of books. When do I let me sit and read anymore? I wonder that I’m back to the blowing off my time big time and I know that that’s true. And ya know what, that’s not good enough for me anymore. If I’m the driver of this bus, and I am, then I’m thinkin I’d like to start visiting places and spaces where I want to go, where I want to be, and the hell with the whole damm bunch of ya. Know what I mean? And it doesn’t even have to be the whole damm bunch of ya anymore cuz I know that everybody has a God and it ain’t me so you all can drive your own buses so the only bozo on my bus is me! I wasn’t ever very fond of bozo, or clowns in general, now that you mention it.
Yesterday I wrote down, “What do I want? she asked full of expectant joy.” And I know that that question will unfold into my conscience mind quickly, easily, in wonder and in awe. And I’m no longer willing to live out all the I don’t want this and I sure as hell don’t want that stuff anymore. Are ya with me sister!?? How funnie! I’d love a platform where I could just sit and blab whatever comes with time for Q and A so that more good stuff could get shared. One of the things Jill identified for me is that I’m a rebel but in a good way, and isn’t that me to a tee 🙂
I’m thinkin I could just take my daily emails to you and post em on my blog. I mean, they don’t usually contain personal stuff. Or, I could write to you and then pull out any personal references… ? Ya know the technology for all this stuff is just sitting there to be used. All the hard study is gone. Want a blog? Write one. No need to know computer code, etc. Want a video blog? Just tape it. You could even use your phone or iPad. Well, I can’t use MY phone, but I could use my iPad. And the phone webinars are already set up and there’s free conference call dot com’s all over the place. For just $19.95, but wait there’s more! And my brother Georgie was talking about a camera that runs itself from a computer. Just click on a person and the camera zooms in, or pans back out. Whaat! How awesome. Huh. Now all I gotta do is get the lead outta my ass and the fear outta my heart, but I’m thinkin I could do that as a blog too. How funnie is that. How cute to watch me grow into the different things. Oh yea, how fun to be so vulnerable the very thought of it makes your chest feel like it weighs a hundred pounds and you’re sweating like a pig. Hey, let’s not drag the pigs in on this. Remember what happened to the whole bunch of em last time. Ha! Still sweating by the way.
Ok sweet lady. I am gunna have to close for now cuz life is showing up all over the place this very fine, but still dark, morning.
Know I love ya dearly, all my love, Lis